It has begun.
I finally started applying for jobs today. Andrew and I just returned from a weekend in Kansas City for a friend’s wedding, which was the last big thing that we had planned for the summer, and I realized I was finally out of excuses to not start applying places. I was also getting tired of people asking me if I had found a job yet and replying that I hadn’t – but that I also hadn’t applied anywhere yet.
Andrew took his NCLEX test (Nursing boards so he can become a Registered Nurse) today, so while he did that, I finished polishing my resume and started looking.
I set myself with a goal to just apply to one job today, if I did nothing else. The first job I found was for an Accounts Payable position at a company that one of my good friends from church works at. How fun would it be to be able to work together! I thought I was well enough qualified and started the application.
It took me an hour and a half to finish the application. I knew that applying would take a good amount of time, but I wasn’t expecting it to take so long. I felt an immediate sense of despair and fixed myself some lunch. I worried about how much time it would take me to apply to different places, and then figured that it wasn’t like I had more productive things to do at the moment. So I finished my lunch and applied for two more jobs.
I’m really nervous about the whole process, which is why I think I put it off for so long to begin with. I’m nervous that I’ll accept a job and then find out I don’t like it, or don’t like the coworkers, or that I don’t have enough experience, etc. In previous jobs, if I didn’t like it, I had the fact that it was only temporary to get me through it. I want to work for a company that I can be loyal to and grow with, and I’m afraid if I accept a position that doesn’t quite fit, I have to stay for a while before I can tactfully move on to a different position.
And then on the other hand, I just want a job so that I can start paying off some loans.
I’m also very nervous about interviewing. I feel like that I am likeable enough on first impression, but I always fear that my nerves will get in the way of me truly sharing what I can offer.
So, my goal for the rest of the week is to apply to at least two more jobs a day. I can check today off and enjoy my break for a little bit longer.
P.S. If you know anyone in the St. Louis area who needs an accountant, holla at ya girl.